Pity.

 

"Be on guard against the pit of self-pity. When you are weary or unwell, this demonic trap is the greatest danger you will face."  -Jesus Calling By: Sarah Young

My aunt came over yesterday.  (Yes, my mom's best friend that I call my aunt.)  I wished she lived in my pocket.  So when I started to fall in the pit, she would pull me out.  She has the greatest relationship with our Father.  I can have the same one, but I have to work on it more.  This relationship grew over the last 30 years for her and she still works on it everyday.  

Anger and pity are two peas in a pod.  I fall in the pit, because I am angry.  See cause and effect- learning that in elementary was helpful after all!

I wrote her an email awhile back about me being angry.  Why won't God, our Father, help me?  Jesus is all loving, why won't He help?  She came over with her very much used Bible.  Tears for me, pinching doesn't work anymore.  She explained that God is hurting too.  We are His children.  No one loves us more.  There will be a day when He comes down from Heaven and destroys all evil.  On that day, those who believe in Him and His son, will live eternally with Him.  No more evil.  Why is there evil now?  We have free will.  Would we know compassion if there wasn't sin?  Would we understand true love?  Would be ever be truly passionate about anything if all we knew was love and perfection?  I took a lot in.  

We went through stories in the bible of Paul and Abraham and Sarah.  How their heartache was for a reason.  Honestly, I felt 100% better when she left, because I was suffering being angry with God.  Pam, you are so very special to me.  I hope you know how much you positively affect those around you.  

Each and Every Morning.

Just thought I'd post a short video on what I do each morning.  Sign my letters.  Stuff them in envelopes.  And throw on some postage.  Praying that someone will help us bring our children home.  Pleading with someone to do the right thing, and bring our children home.  I am not giving up on them.  Every child should know they are loved. 

Truth.

I am angry.  There, I said it.

I am angry.  How about that?  You ask, "How are you doing?"  And I respond:

"I am angry." or

"I have not unpacked my bags from my canceled trip, so I have like 3 outfits I wear over and over." or

"My children don't have their mother or father with them.  It pains me." or

"I talked to my girlfriend last night who has waited for her only child to get home for two years.  Yep, IVF failed her, and all she wants to do is be a mother." or

"I am angry with the state department, they are no help at all. It has become comical."  or

"Judgmental Judy is at it again.  She degrades families for adopting, and paints everyone with the same brush. She even went as far to tell a family they deserve their heartache."  or

"The lack of compassion that can come from people who have internationally adopted truly astounds me." or

"It is shocking that people think the Internet is a way to anonymously tear people down." or

"I cried myself to sleep last night, because I need to be two places at once."  or

"I was shouting, yes shouting at God this morning. And now, I am terrified for my life."

And you're all like, "Dang, I didn't need to know all that."

There are days I choose to live with joy...and there are days I am angry.  Truth.
  

Diamond Room Bounce House.

 

It is still snowing here.  Record broke.  I am bipolar about the snow.  I want to get out and play with my love bugs at the park.  I want to feel the sun on my face.  But then I think we really are enjoying each other while stuck inside.  But after the obstacle courses, and trampoline jumping, books, crafts, train playing, and putting Cealy's 15 babies to sleep, we needed some extra excitement!  The best is nighttime when we turn off all the lights and the kids jump with flashlights and Dan and I enjoy some wine.  I get to thanks Dan's brother and sister in law for this one.  You have provided oodles of fun!

Green Bean Delivery!

If you have come over for dinner anytime in the last three months, you might think I am an employee with this company, but I'm not.  I just l.o.v.e. this idea.  Loooook at the roots on that chick!  Finally, lettuce that doesn't go bad in a few days!

Every Tuesday I get a green bin of yummy.  I usually pick what I want in my bin a couple of days before unless I just want what they are sending that week.  I always get: apples, broccoli, kale, and lettuce.  Who eats kale?  I would have asked the same thing until I got my cholesterol report two months ago.  "Ummmm, whose report is this?  You must have sent me the wrong one."  Nope, my family history can be mean.  So goodbye red meat, and let me tell you how excited I am that we bought a half cow in November...said no vegetarian ever.  (I eat chicken and turkey, just not red meat now.)

I started out making a shake every morning, but my adhd  spontaneity got in the way.  So I try to make sure I have 3 shakes a week.   I put kale, blueberries, banana, flax-seed, and vanilla almond milk in the blender and drink away.  It is pure goodness.

Grocery runs are a lot shorter, when I don't have to think about the fruits and vegetables I need for the week.  So the domino effect there is Sebastian gets into less trouble, because we have less time in the grocery. Win, Win for us all.

I have an old blender.  She is not four stars, but she gets the job done.  You cannot taste a single bite of the kale.  Ask my super picky husband.

AFTER.

Look at the green beans!  Fresh is the name of the game with this company.  

**Green Bean Delivery has added a promotion: Use the code, 15OFml for $15 off your first order.  You have 10 days to use this code.  I pay a flat $35 a week which makes us eat in and healthy.  Occasionally, I buy sides like their pancake/waffle mix-yummy friends. Locations: Louisville, Lexington, Indianapolis, Fort Wayne, Muncie, Anderson, Cincinnati, Columbus, Dayton and St. Louis.